Why Am I Afraid of Elevating My Job Title: Replacing the Negative Feedback

Photo by charlesdeluvio on Unsplash

I am exploring the fears I face as I continue my job search in a field I have worked in for the last 20 years. In the original post, I identified three fears that grip me and have influenced my job search over the past few years. Some of the fears are decades-long, while others are more recent fears. But all of them have influenced my career development.

As I jump back into the search, after taking some time away from that field, I want to confront these fears head-on so I can move on — and move ahead.

In many ways, allowing this memory to continue to impact my current reality has led to me staying stuck in the past, rather than working on myself in the present. Little Edie, in the documentary Grey Gardens, says it best: “It’s very difficult to keep the line between the past and the present.”

I am resolute in making this line more pronounced.

“It’s very difficult to keep the line between the past and the present” — LIttle Edie from the documentary, Grey Gardens. Photo by slagheap on Flickr.

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